Wednesday, January 5, 2005

About Me:

Please note: this is not complete, and will be added to & revised as I get time!

I've been married to this great guy since 1994. I'm in my mid 30's. He's ten years older. He's the complete opposite of me. After all these years, there's still something about his voice on the telephone that just melts me. We have sex just about every single night, and I don't know how he can deal with me waking him up at 3am in the morning to get some! I still find him irresistable.

I am an insomniac, and have ADHD, and take ritalin and adderall for it. If you know anything about ADHD, then you'll know my personality and struggles!

I'm an Aries - and boy do I have all of the traits! I'm quick tempered, fearless, enthusiastic, adventurous, impulsive, headstrong, say exactly what I want, when I want, and rarely engage my brain before opening my mouth. I love freedom of choice. I lose interest really quick if I don't get "quick results". I'm definitely not a follower, and I want to do things my way. I am easily irrated by slowness in friends, and can't stand "stupid". I love people who are straightforward, and tell it like it is. I would prefer to figure things out while I'm doing them, instead of reading the instructions. Kinda like Ready, Fire, Aim.. - doesn't always work, but I'm to much of a get up and go girl to slow down and read the damn book.

What you see, is what you get from me. I suck at lying & try to avoid it at all costs. Don't ever expect subtlety, tact or humility from me. I'm very direct, frank and honest, sometimes to my detriment. I prefer to do things for myself, rather than wait for other people to do them. To me, that's the fastest way to get something done. I have shining optimism, and love other positive people to surround myself with. An absolute way to end a relationship with me is to start dictating, or dominating me. Don't ever give me orders, because I'll just quit listening. If you are out on a date with me, plan to stay out late, and have fun. Probably the only thing I hate about my personality is that when I'm done with something, or someone, I'm done. I can't go back.

I have "un-explained fertility". GROAN.... I've had numerous repeated miscarriages - at least 7 that I know about throughout our relationship together. I came close to being type 2 diabetic, have pcos, uterine fibroids, Dysfunctional Uterine Bleeding, don't ovulate and have Endometriosis. With each of these "diagnoses", I have a few of the symptoms, but not all, so I'm not sure that any of these labels are correct!

I did at least 10 sessions of Clomid, (lost count) then the injections and finally got pregnant yet again with Twins in 2002. I carried them for 20 weeks, and suffered yet another miscarriage that summer. Most other pregnancies never made it past the 10 week mark. I should have bought stock in pregnancy tests, pregnancy books, temperature charts & basil thermometers.

I also gained about 100lbs all told from the start of infertility drugs. I'm still battling with my weight, and exercising, but take it a day at a time. Currently I have about 30lbs I'd like to lose, and my favourite pastime is now spinning! I love it. The (non drug) high that I get from it is worth the hard work.