This is hard work.... how do other mommies deal with this?

Having a 'moms group' is much harder than I thought it would be. In the last 12 short weeks of being an organizer of this group, I have had more than several stressful moments already. I've had many argue with me about moving from yahoogroups to meetup.com. I've had a few moms yell at me about having a photo as a requirement to the group. I've had a few more tell me they couldn't find us at certain events, either because they were a bit late, or because they didn't feel comfortable asking a complete stranger if they were part of the group... that doesn't half make me feel bad, I know how much trouble it is to get out the house with a kid or two, but then to arrive somewhere and wind up walking around by yourself is horrible.

I'm actually now hyperventilating about this Saturday - I feel like it's going to be seriously stressful. It's already a logistical nightmare - trying to meet 100+ women, with their babies, children and husbands on the National Mall during the Cherry Blossom's Kite Festival!! I can't imagine how many phone calls I'm going to get, much less how I'm going to get there with my big ass double jogging stroller, two kids, diaper bags, snacks and navigating the metro stations! They do allow me to wheel the stroller right onto the metro cars, don't they??

Although I'm not afraid to say what I'm thinking, or voice an opinion, I do have a hard time meeting new people.. My husband is much more the outgoing one in our relationship, and he can talk to anyone, about anything at anytime. I hate it!

I have no problem planning parties, choosing places to go, or encouraging people to come along. It's when we're all there, and we're looking at one another that I feel like I'm the one that's supposed to make sure I talk to everyone. God that's awkward!! Especially when you have some folks who are clearly very shy, and then those who are not giving off "good happy vibes"!! LOL. I also can't EVER remember names! I suck at it. It's very embarrassing. If I've met the person before, it's excruciating for me!!

Since January, I've met several great women that I want to get to know better, and enjoy spending my time with, but when you're constantly "hosting" and having new people coming out to new events, it's really difficult to grow the friendship with the original women that I've now connected with.

I almost wish I was just a "member" of the group... not the organizer. Seriously Stressed Mommie..