Single chick Vs Married Mom chick??

I'm pooped. I had a great night out with two girlfriends at this somewhat "hokey" hotel nightclub. However, it was a night out!!! No kids to watch out for, or clean snot & poop off of made it extra special!!

Being out last night with a single girlfriend and another mommy shoved the harsh, stark reality that is my life, right into my face. This one guy came up and started chatting, and I'm sure was wondering which one of the 3 of us was he going to hook up with. He was actually someone that I may have been interested in dating at one time.... nice looking - tall, athletic and neatly groomed & dressed. He had a cool job that was interesting to talk about, and on the surface there was nothing screaming out dickhead... loser... player...

Then it sank in... why am I not this interested when my hubby talks about his job...? Why am I even having this conversation with this guy, when I'm married with children. The fact is that there's a bit inside of me, that was thrilled... I miss that "newness" spark that you get when you are presented with possibilities, or the getting to know one another stage.

After a few more hours & interesting conversations with mommy chick, and seeing single chick get totally drunk, and slobbering all over this dude, I realised that being footloose and fancy free isn't all it's cracked up to be. Looking around the room at lots of lonely, mostly desperate people who want a connection, be it emotional or physical, with someone else to validate them, isn't all it's cracked up to be. The grass isn't always greener on the other side of the fence. Or is it? I do sometimes envy my single friends, to walk into your own place that's neat, clean, tidy, and smells good, is something that I yearn for... longingly.

I got home at 2.30 this morning, and then got online till about 3.30am. I then woke hubby up for some quick drunk sex, and finally went to sleep about 4.30am only to get up at 6.45am. Luckily my kids have just gone back to bed!! Totally not normal for them, but very appreciated. They must realise that mommy is not in tip top condition today. Hair's all askew, look like crap warmed up, and am wearing the pink fuzzy slippers... not a good sign!!

I hate this fu*king weather!!! It's sooo depressing. It makes me wanna eat ;-) --- which reminds me -- I've gotta stop eating out, especially right after going for a walk. Totally defeats the purpose when I go wolf down french fries & half a schwarma pita from the Jewish kosher deli, after only burning 500 calories! Hubby is also quite confused as to why I'm suddenly hanging out at Jewish markets....

It also doesn't help the weightloss efforts when I hit the drive-thru at 2 in the morning for a big and tasty burger... LOL... the vodka and redbulls probably were ok... I mean vodka doesn't have that many calories in it right? Afterall they were doubles with very little actual redbull in it..

I decided about a week ago to move my DC Moms group over to meetup.com. Besides the learning curve, I really like it - but I need to figure out how to edit the stupid reminders so that these women aren't getting shit loads of email. I'm not sure about the paying to use it thing - it seems a little weird to me, that people (i.e losers) pay to start a group in order to make friends... then it occurs to me that I'm one of those total losers for having had the need to start up a group to find mommy friends to begin with. Do you see the big old L on my forehead??? On top of it, now I'm paying too, at least yahoo was free...

Last night was actually an event on the moms night out calendar.. but as it turned out, there wasn't much interest in going out on a Thursday night, to dance your socks off to the oldies... the yahoogroup was so large & seemingly successful; yet most of the mommies refused to move to meetup, and they're still hanging out on the yahoo group where there's *nothing* going on. What the hecks up with that?? Luckily, lots of moms were already on meetup.com just waiting, and waiting, hoping for something cool & hip like me to come along ;-) and they immediately signed up. So we've gone from 287 women on the yahoo group, to 157 on meetup. Only 10% are from the original yahoo group...